7.

Sensitivity.

My sensitivity is a double edge sword of mine. It is my strength yet my weakness at the same time.

I am sensitive to feelings and needs of people, especially my dear girl but I am also oversensitive to matters that are only meager or unimportant. Sometimes, my mind will wonder and I will over-think things.

All in all, I believe that the things that happened to me in the past relationships did play a major part in me being paranoid. I know K is nothing like the others and she is totally different from them but what had happened to me before affected me badly. Moreover, K is such a fantastic girl. She is smart, pretty, cranky (in a good way) and lovable. Its no doubt why other men would fall for her too.
Today, I overreacted when K went to meet her guy friend for dinner. (which he brought her to a romantic place and having known that he likes/once liked her) But to be fair to me, I really tried my best to be understanding and less paranoid over the outing but I finally gave in to wild thoughts only much later when it was almost ending. I'm pretty sure all I need is time before I can fully let go of this over-thinking, oversensitive mentality.

Don't worry bae, I will overcome this issue and I will stay sensitive to your needs and feelings and not be oversensitive at matters that are unimportant.

6.

"The Surprise"

I'm so excited about the 'Surprise' that I've planned out for K. Its the first time I've done something so massive and it really took a lot of hard work and effort to finally come up with the plan. I'm the kind of person who find it very hard to hide secrets from the partner and now I've to hide such a huge secret from her. I feel uneasy all over just by the thought of it.
I really hope everything goes as plan on saturday and most importantly that she enjoys it. Just by the smile on her face is more than enough contentment for me.

2 More days to K's 21st Birthday Celebration~
Surprise, Surprise!

5.

Communication.

K and I had our first long HTHT session for 2010 last night. It is probably one of the longest HTHT session we had.
We discussed about many things and we were very honest and frank with our opinions. I love K because K is someone who is understanding and we both had a good time learning more about each other and that really helps our relationship.

Communication to me is one thing that no relationship can do without. It is the foundation of all relationships.
If we choose to hide our feelings or grievances, one day this will just snowball into a huge problem which will be difficult to solve. Therefore, we should always voice our opinions and make ourselves heard. No one is alike, no matter how similar they can be, their individual personality, lifestyle and environment affects the way they think, feel or react to the situation.

It is always easier to stop a small fire as compared to a forest fire. Likewise, in this case, it is always better to evaluate and come to a compromise together on a small issue rather than a huge problem that have snowballed over a period of time.

4.

The Promise.

"Promises made are meant to be kept and not broken."

This blog entry is dedicated to a promise, which I've made today to K. It is also a written proof that many years down the road later if I do read back on this entry, I know that I still hold that promise true.

We had a fair bit of HTHT (Our lingo for Heart-To-Heart Talk) today and we were speculating on how the future might become and it worries K that I might change if I step into the events/film industry and its because of what K had experience before in her previous relationship and she is worried that history might repeat itself.

Therefore, as a promise to her and to myself, I would never get swayed by what people might get me into or try to change me into someone I am not. I will the same person as the one I am now.

I've been through similar situations whereby I've been traumatized by the previous relationships before and I totally understand the feeling and that feeling is seriously not nice at all. I do not want to make K worry for me or even let her feel the slightest insecurity. K is someone very important to me. She is someone who is different from the rest. It feels as though we're two puzzles that fit perfectly together, I know it sounds cliché but this is a fact that I can't deny.

K is the single most awesome GF ever!